hope you all had a fine Halloween i had the best besides for some fucking twelve year old stole my bloody spanner, so basically i was dressed as a zombie hunter was meant to do a Tyrian Lannister scar across my face but due to rehearsals being really intense this week i could barely stand up and i could not be arsed practicing with the liquid latex and when Friday popped its beautiful head around the corner it was too late and i decided fuck it and do it, but something happened and when i had made the scar it dried up and started to fall off so that failed so we threw blood all over me and it looked amazing!! (please do not do this in the bathroom of you're student accomindation you want you're deposit back don't ya XD) then i went to a pre-drinks party, and after i started drinking i realized i had not had the chance to eat anything besides a slice of birthday cake and decided that it was going to be a vary interesting night, we then started to play a drinking and card game called fuck you, so basically everyone gets two cards out of the pile (and every time you put one down you pick another one up) and then the dealer starts she/he can put any card down and says fuck you (enter name here) and then starts to count down, if someone has the same card they can also place it down to save that person from this and say fuck you (enter name here) then start to count down this can happen four times (obviously) and when they reach zero the last person who got fucked has to drink the amount of that type of card on the pile so if there were four 6 of hearts down there then they would take four sips but big ones, but i ended up fucking it and downing three of mine, well the last one was more of a dribble but i still fucking did it (Tyrian are you proud of me?) then we started my drunken walk to our favorite pup PENNYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D where we meet the fucking 12 year old zombie who was a dick and threw my spanner away because i would not suck him off in which in a drunken manner i replied "im sorry i do not belief in rape and i am tired after doing it to you're mum" and which the drunken walk turned into a run in heels!!!!!!!!! XD we got to Pennys <3 where we meet a lot of amazing people as we always do and sang karaoke, but some dick head stole the song me and a friend was meant to do a sweet transvestite, he said he had called my friends name but i was standing right there and he hand not, but at 1:30 am we started signing don't stop believing as i threw my wolf hat about the place XD then i went to bed crying because i had not got a boyfriend and i was meant to talk to this really cute guy at the party but the alcohol got to me first XD
okay and onto the title of this post,
i am sad because i am still ill, which has added onto the bloody stress!
we were given an assignment to write up a review about DIY theater (i would get into detail but its long and i dont understand any of it XD ) then use the correct refference. so in tears i wrote up what i could about the article i had just read and trying to but it into normal peoples words (i have just learnt that some of my sentences if not all do not make any sense, which in its self is frustrating because in my head they do!!) so i was trying to make them make sense whilst trying to make sense of the article........if that makes sense XD
so anyways threw tears i made it!! i did it i felt like Rambo in the first of blood i had made it out of the war but gonna walk into a town in which i do not know yet but i am not welcomed in....
then i had to do referencing that bloody useless thing that i fucking hate as much as i hate Sundays!!! the thing is we were given a lesson in how to do them, but he turned up late and did it all in about 10 mins and at that time i did not have my echo pen so i was sitting there trying my best to hold my anger in, and he was saying it as fast as Eminem can rap "rap god" and then he gave us a page on moodle in which we can find our reference list (on how to write the variety of referencing) asked for questions but before anyone could put there hands up he was out of the door and gone leaving behind a small blue piece of paper (blue paper with black writing on it is amazing, the letters have stopped their teasing little dance and now it is i who is dancing a happy dance of victory) saying that he was part of the learning services (a place if you wanna get tested for dyslexia or anything else or to get help with assignments) in which cheered me up because of the irony, he was raping to a group of students that are not only connected threw the love of acting and behind set work, but where the majority of us (and most out of the whole uni campus) are dyslexic or have ADD, so he fucked up there, it does not really matter i have complained to the people and i think we are getting another lesson about it with another lecturer who knows what they are doing.
okay so back to the walk to the town, so i had completed what i thought was going to the most difficult part of my day and how i was so wrong. i tried my best to reference it correctly compering it to others (people reference it for me and i felt so stupid going to them and asking again after asking three times so i went and looked at my notes and i had found where they kept a whole document on our moodle page on different types of referencing and the sun started coming out of the gray clouds until i found out that they did not have any on the referencing i needed so i threw my notes across the room along with other objects that would not break, and started crying, its hard being stupid really difficult but at some points it is amazing (please dont be like aww you're not stupid, i am, if people including teachers say i am for the past 15 years then i am and i have learnt to life with it along side my dyslexia and i'm in uni where soon i will get the best help i can and be the first stupid person to graduate from here) so i decided to fuck it and write where i found it at what time, the name of the person who wrote it and when it was published (and yes i know its what i has to be done but there is a specific order in which it has to go in) and i am hoping that if i point out to my lectures and my class reps that this was the easier and not so stressful way of me doing it and get some others to agree with it i am hoping that i can get the people who is in charge recognize it as a type of reference which only dyslexic people and i the stupid one can use :)
and why i am pissed, because i am starting to realize that i might not have the time to write one up every week, next week they are doing the fault in our stars, which i bloody hate, and so i changed mine to the one who flew over the cuckoos nest its a beautiful movie absolutely stunning but at this rate with how rehearsals are going and with all the work i have to do (i have assignments/ home work and on top of that i have to write a log book of each lesson and rehearsals). I think i might not be able to next week, but i will hopefully be able to slot in writing up a blog about it and then schedule it in for 1pm (the time where i normally get up on a Sunday so it will feel like i have written it and posted it up myself). i am starting to struggle with doing the work and this at the same time, so please do not be expecting one each week, there may be days in which there will be nothing and i do apologize in advanced but it should not be often and hay that's show business for ya and sometimes you have to give up something you enjoy to do something you love which for me is performing :)
love you all my amazing ginger ninjas
hope you all had a wonderful Halloween :)
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